more on love and depression
If I may, I would like to add some more thoughts to my blog on love and depression. In the past year or so, I have worked hard on being closer to God and to making peace with all of the stuff that has happened to me. I keep saying this over and over, but this past 6 years has been brutal. I have had to do a complete ‘re-build’ of my beliefs and ideas and thought processes. I am not done yet. I can honestly say that in the past year, there have been times I was not depressed. For me, that is saying a lot. I seem to have found inner peace and happiness. Somehow, sometimes, though, I lose sight of it. I need to make God my friend again and keep God there and stop placing blame. I need someone to love and someone who will love me back just as much as I love her. Until the time is right, I need to just keep focused on being positive and to keep progressing with my growth and my life.
posted by Timothy at 6:44 PM
2 Comments:
Well, don't know if this is any help, but I think the more you grow and become your own person, the more ready you are to have a solid relationship with another--providing they also have their act together. Sometimes when people are young and haven't had a chance to discover who they are, they can try to merge their identity with another and not really grow anymore. And I tend to think these relationships are more likely to self-destruct sooner or later.
The sex dreams are certainly interesting. I tend not to delve as deeply into dream interpretation--it just seems natural that if you haven't had sex with another in awhile, it's gonna come out somehow.
Hope you can find that special person--are there any places to meet people around there, other than bars and AA (lol)?
6:08 AM
Thanks, E! I agree with you.
There are very limited places to met people here. That is why I tried the internet. There are some woman around me now, but there seems to be something with all of them. Too young, married or boyfriend, something like that. This seems to be going in a slow progression for me, so although there is no ‘dating’ possibilities for me right now, there is at least an improvement from before by having some contact. If all continues in this manner, then eventually there will be someone for me. Sometimes, it seems to me that this process is taking way too long to happen. This also makes me wonder if I am not done growing and healing and all of that yet. Sometimes, I do not know what it is that I need to be working on, so I get confused.
1:23 PM
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